It’s my natural personality to just procrastinate and wait until the last minute for most tasks. Order and preparation are not naturally honed skills for me. I watch “Friends” and Monica just amazes me with her love of cleaning and order. Yeah, I know she’s not a real person but people like her really do exist.
In the last 8 months, I have tried to learn these skills and utilize them in my everyday life. My house (for the most part) has been pretty organized (for me at least). I’ve gone thru all the closets and as they started to pile up again, I’ve returned to strike down the clutter dragon that seems to lurk in them. I’ve tried to pick up items when leaving the room to stay on top of the toys, books, dishes, stuff that inevitably makes it’s way away from it’s ‘home’ and ends up on the floor and/or the tables/couches. It really does not take a lot of time before it’s overwhelming to me and I feel like I need massive help getting it good again. So I’ve tried to learn to do a little everyday and keep it within 15min of being ‘company clean’. Flylady was a great tool in teaching me the little steps and for those of you who are orderly retarded, such as I, I highly recommend it for at least a couple months.
But every now and then, I get a colossal reminder of the demon that I wrestle with. Procrastination… ugh! My nemisis. How I love to procrastinate. And I don’t even know why. Dan always points out that because of it, I am in a feverish panic and often miss out on a decent amount of sleep because of it. This was a big reason why I tried to stop cold turkey.
Tax time has reminded me of this awful trait that I carry. Here it is, a few days from the deadline and I still don’t have it all together. My appt with the accountant is tonight at 5pm. It’s 2:45 right now… why do I do this to myself? Why don’t I learn? I keep telling myself that next year, I’ll do better but deep down I know… next year will come and I’ll be right here in the same spot. Frantic, tired and frustrated.