How soon is now?

The blessing about already having made a decision is that you don’t need to make it again.  Yesterday… that was my saving grace.  Since I’d already committed on Saturday that I would be running today, I could change the question of will I to when will I?  That’s what got me on the treadmill for Day #3.

My run went a little something like this…

First 10 min

• occupied myself with picking out a tv show/channel for the first 5min
• decided that tv is crap and put on headphones
• distracted myself with picking out a killer song… settled on Florence and the Machine’s Shake it off
• felt good

Second 10 min

• pleasantly surprised that time is going by so fast
• become optimistic about becoming a runner again
• downgrade that optimism to skepticism after an agonizing 1.5 minute
• wonder how Bruce Springsteen could have possibly thought Pink Cadillac was a good song to add to his repertoire
• consider the 732 things I need to do today
• tell myself that this is important too
• remember that in running, all underwear is not created equal

Last 10 min

• totally and completely over this run, decide to change channels to distract myself
• accidentally fling the remote across the room with the channel stuck on a horrible song
• go back to listening to headphones instead to drown out the ‘i hate this’ chant that’s playing through my mind
• wonder why time is going so incredibly slow
• remind myself that my mind doesn’t know the difference between what’s real and not… begin chanting ‘i love this’ to myself
• decide to run 1 extra minute

Done with another day.  Scout did his usual congratulatory lick on my calf.  I’m sure this is his version of a high-five.